I’m an integrated sort of person. I like everything to be related to everything else. I don’t like to snip bits and pieces of information, or curb things, in order to make them acceptable to others. But unfortunately if you’re not anonymous, you’re making frandship left, right and centre.
You see, I’m not really fond of fear, but fear is what drives a lot of this. It’s a dumb country and you have to live a dumb life.
My girlfriend’s hanging out right now with someone I’d really like to a) meet and b) be networked with. She seems like a really interesting person who is either queer or knows a lot about queer-ness. I would really, really, really like to be totally out. Not in a flag-waving, militant way. Just comfortable. So that I wouldn’t have to have multiple identities.
I guess this is the opposite of my thing on internalized homophobia. A desire to hide versus a desire to show show show.